A Special Dedication to My Superhero :)

# 18/04/2012 ---> 18/04/2013#

--> why this date seems so important ? <--

maybe it's just a day like the other ordinary days in a year..
maybe, it's a someone's birthday anniversary today...
or today, there would be a happy memory written on the diaries of a newly wed couples..
also maybe, a father-to-be is now getting nervous, standing outside the labour room, waiting to hear the first cry of his little "jewel"...might be twin "jewels"..
or maybe it's the day where someone's life changing in their own way.. maybe something special and meaningful..

~~ yup..today...it's just so important..to me n my family especially..but it's not a special one.

Today but in last year, where it was the year of my happy and blissful teenage life ends tragically...full of sadness story that change me n my family's life forever...the day that I last kissed my dad's forehead n hugged him after I've returned back from sitting for my final math matric's exam...the day that a daughter n two sons lost the greatest hero, the day where a lovely wife lost her faithful lover, and a strong mother lost the main hope of her life...

The day where I thought medic stream was the sickest job on Earth, n that's why I refused the medic study offers to Egypt...the day that myself gone dead and helpless...hopeless...dark and gloomy...and everything...the day where the reality of a life begins as I started to think rationally and have to make right decisions...rather than being a selfish and spoiled daughter... the day that I woke up next day in a very different feeling...

It's been a year now...Abah, I miss u.. so much.. I did cry sometimes, because I miss your phone calls, I miss your nagging... I miss the moment when you scold me... I miss you patting my head... I miss the moment that I kissed ur hand.. I miss every memories when u gave me your warm fatherly hugs.. and I did miss your bad jokes sometimes... I even miss the real fun of laughing with you in the car... I miss your attempts to make me the luckiest daughter in the world... I miss the face that never fails to give me relieve when I'm stressed.. I miss the days when u drove me to school...I miss those days when you tease me around bout how will I look in my wedding in the future.. I miss your cooking... I miss your concern attitudes... I miss your warm smile... I miss those days, when I made you proud of my PMR and SPM's results...and in fact, I miss everything that we've gone through together... and that space is always being empty now, then n forever.. never be replace again..
 
In my 19 years of living, I never feel abandoned and I don't regret to have you for my father...You were not perfect, you were not rich though, you were not that stylish either...you have essentially nothing that I can be proud of you about...because you were just a security guard, not a bussinessman neither a lawyer nor a doctor...no..you were no one...but you, were not like other fathers...you're different, you were kind, you were caring..you were jovial...you were strict... you were handsome to me...and you had time for me, for the family eventhough you were working days and nights...you never babble on how hard was it for you to work all the way, just to raise us three... I did complain why can't I  have my driving license after I reached 17 while most of my friends have their parent's permission already to have their own car..it's not because you didn't want to, it's just that you thought that I still very young to own my driving license...it's just because you didn't ready to see me growing up...it's just because you love me...you never tells that, but I know.. I could see it, in your eyes... you are wonderful..just the way you are...you are everything... :)

I know... I complained a lot... I know, I argued a lot with you...but, you always...always let me win..

# i miss u # 

# but i know, God misses u more...#

# He loves u more # 

Thanks Allah, for giving us the best dad that one would ever know in the world ! 
Abah, thanks for giving me the perfect life...we may not be a rich family, but it's always enough to have everything you gave to us...we never starve..we never being homeless...we are happy...you may not be here with us any longer, but your spirits and determination lingers within our hearts... :)

You are the only man in my heart that I love forever and never being forgotten...never :)

~~Dedicated to a lovely father, a faithful lover and an obedient son...~~

My late father, KAMARUDDIN BIN MOHAMAD...Al-Fatihah :) 

May Allah bless this wonderful father of mine, ease all my father's businesses and love him like what he'd done to us, giving us everything he could just to make us contented... Amiin~

my father :)

the last family portrait, but without me in it..huhu :(

RM 250 = Baucar Pelajar + Mati Kutu

Assalamualaikum semua !! Hola !! Hello !! Annyeong !! Konnichiwa !!
dan ucapan2 yg sama waktu dengannya.... ^_^

How's doing, guys?
Oh..my midsem break mood is now really2 fantastic...*just wait la until it's over..huhu*

Aiseyman..rajin pulak la kau mengupdate entry2 blog kau sekarang ni kan, malin?

Haha...saje la...nk mengisi masa terlapang yg bole di dapati hnya sewaktu cuti midsem or cuti sem...
lagi bagus dari tido 24 jam sehari 7 hari seminggu or layan "Running Man" atau lain2 sampai tak tau waktu makan and buat benda laen..kan?

Hehe..cukup2..sekarang tak nak mengarut panjang2...just nak share sket la ape yg dah jadik dgn baucer ihsan pemberian kerajaan yg RM250 tuh...haeh...

ada gambar PM lagi kau...kelas gitu.. :)

# RM250...

Banyak tuh bagi orang yg mati kutu tak tau nak spend beli ape...kawan2 bagi suggestion beli novel je tapi macam sayang lah kalo nak hentam semua ke novel...jangan bohong la nak beli buku ilmiah kalo dah nama budak universiti...library punya buku sape nak guna nanti..? haha...lagi pon budak2 uni bukan pakai buku rujukan bagai mcm sekolah menengah pon...semuanya ada kat library..hehe..*sorry, ketuk kepale sendiri* dah la aku allergic ngan novel2 nih..dari mula mencatu dalam kepala otak ape nak beli..pergi Harris (aka Popular) ari tu dgn harapan nak borong stationaries yg branded2 skali tak bole la pulak..ade polisi syarikat bagai yg statement dya : "pembelian menngunakan baucer di Popular Bookstore dan yg sewaktu dgnnya mestilah terdiri daripada --> 80% bahan bacaan n 10% stationaries" LIKE A BOSSS !! ...mmg tak menangis ke laut aku dah angkut berjenis stationary idaman hati...dah tu, beratur panjang lagi kat cashier lama2, smpai2 depan cashier nak bayar kena letak barang balik...ape punya polisi la... T_T"

dan sejak tuh, lagi mati kutu la nak beli ape tak tau...

Dah meluat jap ngan Harris Bookstore, masuk Times Bookstore pulak..
Pun, tak de ape sgt...bnyak buku international yg memang tak la aku dapat hadam maksud sesetengah darinya...bau kedai pon lain...suasana pon sunyi je...yg masuk2 pon bukan org Malaysia..*over..haha* harga pon pedih la jugak mata memandang...mahal jah oii...kalo tak kerana baucer, mmg tak sekali pon aku singgah beli kat sini...

(I wished if BigBadWolf Book Fair sampai kat Sabah ni...heaven!! kat sini ade kedai buku ape la sgt...Hasani pon tak de, MPH...lagi la ko jgn berangan...ape pon tak bole...Kinokuniya? syurga bgi pencinta komik like me? dhahhh..not in a million years !!..)
 

Dah ter"masuk" jugak ke tempat tuh, pusing2 la tgok ape yg bole dibelanjakan...stationary dya tak bape menarik perhatian mcm kat Popular and kurangnya variation barang2 yg mengikut kemahuan dan kehendak hati...pusing punya pusing punya pusing...last2 jumpa la satu item yg dirasakan berguna la jugak sampai ke sem 3 nanti..jeng jeng jeng...
Sebuah OXFORD Beginner's Japanese Dictionary yg didapati dengan harga RM 58.19...hah ! beres dah RM50 baucer tuh...nekad nak abeskan jugak seratus hari tuh, tak kira apa jadik !! hahaha....

Last2...sebab dah biul sangat tak tau nak calas benda ape, aku terlanggar jugak polisi diri sendiri dengan mengambil 2 buah novel melayu ; Bisik-bisik Gelora - Fauziah Ashaari (RM28.49) and Kala Cinta Menggoda - Noorfadzilah (RM21.89)...jangan tanya best ke tak sebab aku tak minat kalaupon cerita dya best...novel2 ni dibeli dgn diniatkan untuk diberikan kepada ibunda yg memang suka novel2 nih...(kan heaven kalau RM250 tuh dapat completekan my comic collections...LE Gardenie lagi tiga siri...Lawak Kampus pon ada kuar yg baru lagi nih...Under 18...and banyak lagi la...)

Maka..total perbelanjaan baucer hari tu mencecah RM 97.70 sebab dah tolak diskaun 10% (bagus betul la..) lagi yg balance tuh aku genapkan dengan dgn membeli gam gajah berharga RM3.63...haha :) amek kau...maka, harga akhir ialah RM100 dan terlebih 97sen...bole la... :D

Dengan itu, baucer ihsan pemberian kerajaan aku punya masih berbaki RM150 yg saya masih belum pasti untuk dibelanja ke mana pulak...*mati kutu mati kutu*

Di sini ada disertakan item2 yg di borong di Times Bookstore tempoh hari...

hah...ni la ape yg aku dapat dengan RM100...
sebijik kamus beserta 2 ketul novel melayu..

setail kan beli gam gajah gune baucer...kau ade?
XD

ahaha~ beg plastik je pon~ :P

*ahahaha...maka dengan itu, habes la bebelan saya untuk hari nih...dah tak tau nak taram ape lagi dah...

terima kasih, thank you, syukran, kamsahamnida, arigatougozaimasu, xie xie dan segala yg sewaktu dengannya saya ucapkan sebab menyinggah ke sini...

Kalo panjang umur, ade la update entry lagi...hahaha... Assalamualaikum :)

My favorite song's jam ; HOLD ON by JoJo

Sorry guys..nothing happened around lately, and this entry was just a song's review (not so review..) of me at the moment...

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LYRICS ::

If only I wouldn't be alone

When the two of us are together

I'm a stranger in my home

It's like we're giving up on each other

I don't know where to turn to (turn to)

It's like I don't even know you (know you)

And I'm the one you used to fight for

Oooh..

Instead of giving in give it all

All we get to is far gone

Instead of looking up just look down

See if I with come

You gotta hold on, hold on

Why do we keep on letting go?

Why do we keep on letting go?

Hold on, hold on

Why do we let it go out our way?

Why don't we stand up and try again?

You never know

What you lose by letting go

You gotta hold on, hold on

You got me to hold

You gotta hold on

Baby, we're running are we safe now

This ain't gonna withstand any longer

You and I have to learn how

To find another way to be stronger

And I don't know where to turn to (turn to)

But I won't stop until I get through (get through)

I can't let this flame just burn out (burn out)

Instead of giving in give it all

All we get to is far gone

Instead of looking up just look down

See if I with come

You gotta hold on, hold on

Why do we keep on letting go?

Why do we keep on letting go?

Hold on, hold on

Why do we let it go out our way?

Why don't we stand up and try again?

You never know (you never know)

What you lose by letting go (let it all gone)

You gotta hold on, hold on

You got me to hold

You gotta hold on

Baby, I'm so scared we can work it out

(You gotta hold on)

But I'm all afraid of giving up without a fight

You gotta hold on, hold on

Why do we keep on letting go?

Why do we keep on letting go?

Hold on, hold on

(Hold on, hold on, hold on)

Why do we let it go out way?

Why don't we stand up and try again?

You never know (you never know)

What you lose by letting go (letting go)
You gotta hold on, hold on

You got me to hold

You gotta hold

You gotta hold on

You gotta hold

Hold Hold

You gotta hold on

You gotta hold

You gotta hold on

You gotta hold

You gotta hold on..

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I don't know why but this song made me hooked up for it like it was meant for me...for the moment, I feel very connected to it somehow....hahaha
( ermm, but I don't even have a boyfriend ok..haha )

and I don't know why I blogged this..maybe I just want to share my thought at the moment I felt a sudden empty and lonely..

oh ! come on...life is not that hard, it's just human kind that made it more complicated...

The sky will not always being blue, and the rainbow isn't always be there after the rain...right?

So come on...cheer up...and hold on ok...be moderate and just to people around you...

Your Real Wealth Is Not Your Gold... :D

Assalamualaikum..hye hye guys !!

Aaahh..mid-sem break for the UMS students had started ! Meaning that, NO STRAINING LECTURES, NO TIRING PRACTICALS, NO PROGRAMMING TUTORIAL, NO SHOCKING POP-QUIZES,  NO 'SHIT'ING WAIT FOR THE MORNING BUSES (sorry T_T") , bla bla bla...NO NO NO EVERYTHING haha... for a whole week..yeah !! but..just need to study a little bit for the upcoming mid-term exams, which is just after the break..huhu.. T_T oh my !

OK..enough of the complains I made. People, please...please don't complain like me..complaining is not a good thing..it makes u think that all of the stuffs happening around you seems so burdening and stressing you out...it's not necessary..you can complain bout it but sometimes, but you need to give your student's life a chance to experience sorts of things that happened to you willingly or unwillingly..because later, you'll gonna miss the hectic life of a student..enjoy these chances while u still can !

Hehe..got nothing exciting actually to write about, I just thinking of sharing with u guys one thing.. (em, maybe more than one :P )Hope if u guys can spend some times reading this, it won't be a waste of time

 ^_^

it's now or never !!

For those people out there that likely want to go on a dieting plan or wanting to lose some weights, here i got some tips that i randomly picked up from the internet..( I'm trying up some of these useful tips too and proudly to say that I had lose at about 5kg in three weeks ! wonderful, isn't it? ^_^ )

1st :: Drinking lots of plain water, not less than 2 liter per day ! 

( drinking 3-4 liter is good enough..)

Drink more plain water can enhance and boost your metabolisme to ease the process of food digestion and detoxification. To increase the water intake to your body in a day, you should not forget to also increase the physical activites that can make you sweats. When you sweats, your body will automatically needs more water intake.

2nd :: Eat 5 or 6 times in a day, but in smaller quantities ! 
 
Dieting doesn't mean that you to have starve yourself ! According to The Penn State University, consuming food in between 3 hours time can enhance your metabolism level. When your body consumes food, it will activate the metabolic reaction to process and digesting the calories and nutrition that we gained from our food intake. But, need to bear this in your mind that the food source itself should come from the original sources in order to get the right and to obtain the great deal of nutrition. FAST FOOD, CANNED FOOD or INSTANT FOOD will never helps you because they contain a great deal of sugar level ! Cutting off sugar intake may helps you to reduce more excessive weight.

3rd :: Weight-Training Exercises ? 
 
"Weight-Training" is a type of exercise that makes your muscles work out to enhance metabolic reaction to increase metabolisms. Eventhough you are an overweight or obesity person, you still need to practice this weight training exercise because it can help you to increase your muscle mass in the body and to facilitate the burning of your body fat layers.

4th :: Green Tea benefits

Green Tea contain a natural chemicals namely, "polyphenols" that has been classified as catechins. According to The University of Maryland Medical Center, the most activated catechin is EGCG (Epigallocatechin gallate) which the one that provides the ability to burn fat and calories. Green Tea also contains low level of caffeine to stimulate the senses and increase the metabolisms of your body.

5th :: Try up some Cardio Exercises !!
 
  Cardio or cardiac exercises includes all the exercises that trains and makes up your respiratory systems and build up your muscles endurance. The simple exercises that can be done by everybody are like jogging, or walking for a long distance, swimming, and so much more ! For women, shopping around the mall can do the trick ! :) By doing the cardiac exercise more frequently, you can improve the body metabolic rate because it involves the muscles straining and endurance to burn up fat and calories. Not only inducing the fat and calories burning, cardiac exercises will promise you a healthy cardiovascular system and makes your metabolism level at a good stage after doing the exercise.

6th :: Spicy Food.. hell yeah.. :)

Like spicy and hot hot hot food? Well, there's a good news...Spicy food contain a chemical compound that made up of capsaicin. It will increase the inner body temperature and makes your body easier to burn up fat and calories with the increment of your metabolic rate. In the end, your body weight can be reduced. And a fact, that is consuming spicy food could also controls your eating because when it got hotter and spicier, your voracious appetite will automatically shut down and eventually you will stop consuming excessive food ! 

Genius !!

Well then, if u are motivated enough to start a better life routine, just make sure that you set up a goal and target. I hope those tips really work on others because it works on me..LOL..ok guys, captain gotta go now...thanks for sailing with me and my crew today.. Have a nice day !!


Assalamualaikum and happy reading :)