Friday, 14 November 2014

Mixed Emo.

Have you ever feel like sometimes being hit by a car and die is better than to live on? Have you ever feel soulless...cramped inside your heart that you just wanna do nothing but hugging your knees and cry your soul out? Have you ever feel that sadness and darkness along with emptiness filling up your thoughts and mind...affecting every human senses that you possess?  Have you ever know that feeling?

Or you just don't want to care much and still live on like ghoul. Empty, restless, lingering and stuck somewhere unexplained, numb without vivid direction?

Oh oh. Saje nak intro emo...masuk feel. Teehee. 

*Mintak slipper Jepun ke pipi ke Malin? hukhuk...*

Biasa la kan emo time-time tahun akhir pengajian ni. Lagi pulak si Malin ni. Hoho. Tapi kan seriously, I felt that way recently...there's time that I feel like everything is just mocking me... my shadow followed me everywhere but could do nothing to help me and I always be the one that stuck somewhere and yet to come out....Drowning in tears like almost every time I took my shower, restless incomplete feeling in every sleep at night, forgot to eat on time and end up eating junks at 3 am in the morning. Well, that's basically happened to me lately.

Cerita dia bila satu masalah settle, tapi masalah lain beranak pinak macam virus. Agaknya kalau manusia punya otak ni mcm PC memory or hard disk ke kan...memang dah lama rosak yang tak boleh nak baik dah, memang corrupt terus disk, silap2 bole meletup ke, overheat sampai bikin short circuit ke, bagus kasi buang terus and beli baru jerr.

HAHAHA. Kadang-kadang diri sendiri pon tak tau nak respon ape dengan surrounding yang macam ni. Ingat jadi student medic je ke yang susah? Bak kata orang2 la.... Itu malin tak tau, since I'm not student medic pon. Tapi memang gerenti laa, siapa pon yang menghadapi tahun akhir pengajian tak kira course ape skali pon, akan menghadapi saat2 gila dan stress melampau sampai nak buat ape pon rasa tak bernafsu. I even think of not going home this cuti semester, cancelling my budgets for flight tickets and to my surprise I rented a motorcycle out of the blue, earlier this week for the sake of stress. So when I feel insecure, I could just roam to everywhere I feel safe and sound, usually library laaa. Hahaha.

Lagi satu, untuk mereka2 yang semacam ini, akan ada simptom2 tambahan lainnya, tak kisah laa, bergantung kepada individu. Macam malin ni paranoid dengan huruf "P"; as for it is used in many terms like,
  • final year "P"roject...
  • "P"roposal...
  • slide "P"resentation...
  • even one of my lecturer's name that started with "P"
    (Sorry Dr...>_<"). 

I even can't stand any terms or words that consists of obvious "P" sounds like:
  • "P"o"P"ulation... 
  • "P"regnant...
  • "P"ulau "P"enyu...
  • sakit "P"erut... 
  • "P"rotection...
  • tandas "P"erempuan...
  • "P"e"P"si...
  • "P"am"P"ers... 
  • "P"oo"P"...
and so many more laaa... To the extent that I might scold my friends that used the words in front of me. If there's someone asked about anything related to "P", my gay mood will change for real and affected the whole-day- happy-me of that particular day. 

*Lol. I might change into a villain or in a serial killer mood if I want to describe* 

Once again, I'm sorry for my bad reflex reaction towards alphabet "P". It just happened lol. But this are not only the symptoms I have, there's still some more like sleep-talking, or not sleeping for 2 days in a row like zombie??... I might be sleep-walking too but fortunately, less sleep cause the chance of sleep-walking possibility to reduce and...yeah. Whatever. Haha. *facepalm*

Well I should stop for now. Goodbye. Assalamualaikum. I just don't know what are left for me to write now. Stuffy brain and congested. Meet you guys in another future post~~!! I need a short nap before I start doing my works again. *Sigh*

- Oh the way, I find this song kinda have its own meaning. Suddenly I'm attached to it. The lyrics might be just repeating lines but it suits my feeling since I like songs with such simple guitar play. Simple yet catchy song. I thought that's why people love The Beatles.

Black Bird - The Beatles
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Tuesday, 10 June 2014

Take A Break.

Assalamualaikum. Teehee.

It has been sooooooooo long since I last updated things on my blog. It's not that I left or whatsoever, I just can't find the right time to do blogwalking and you know..gaining some inspirations ahahahaha~ However, I seriously missed being around here...ranting bout random stuffs and spitting everything that I want here..well, almost everything... >_<


I'm in my last weeks of my 2nd year of study. It has been a long journey since the very first time I'm here. It feels short though. Next September, I'll be in my final year of my degree. Yeah. I'm growing up fast. And you guys too.

There's so much things happened to me this sem, I would never finish the story if I have to write 'em in here hahaha. I have not so much pictures of me and my crazy fellas this sem, since everyone is fucking busy~!! Haha..ooopps. By the way, I have some grand stories for me to tell you guys about, but not in this entry, and I'll try to moderately not exaggerating much and stay as humble as possible. What the. Haha.

Oh by the way, I'm still on my exam weeks. Just burned off two papers in a day and I'm gonna puke volcano magma and spit fire throughout all of my next exam papers. I'm gonna kill those sheeeeetss~!! Wish me luck guys...!!!

And to you guys that sit for final exam just like me, I wish you guys tonnes of good luck and all the best~!! See you guys so soooooon.....

Till then, goodbye first. Teehee.

Lol. Happened to me occasionally. Okay. Assalamualaikum.

Sunday, 8 June 2014

Hey Hoooo. Hye Peeps!!

Ohhhhoooooi. Satu sem tak update entry blog. Sorry la kemalasan + kesibukan + kehilangan mood + assignment tahun 2 was joke. Seriously, halfway crazy.

This one gonna be my seriously short entry. I'm on exam fever. Gonna be on the battlefield for this upcoming three weeks. Gonna fire everything and burn those exam sheets. I'm on fire~!! Hahaha.

Ok whatever. Wish you guys good luck for those who will be sitting for final exam for this semester.
And wish me and my colleagues the best of luck in our exam. Miss hanging out on blog, I promise that I'll update as soon as the exam finished. Haha. Can't wait to set free. I wanna go home.

Kedah, see you very soon. Sabah, I'm gonna have my break so goodbye soon.

*LOL. Tak sabaqnyaaaaaa*